Any ideas???

[laurasaysiloveyou]

So, it's been a while. I'm really sorry I haven't been participating more. I guess I've kind of been getting in my own way, dealing with work and family and what not. If I'm going to be honest with myself though, that isn't the entire story.

I've been having some strange and kind of frightening moments lately, that I've had trouble adjusting to. I'm getting a little afraid that I'm going a bit mad. For example:

~A while ago I ran into an acquaintance. By nature he is very fit and muscular, all around a health fanatic. When I saw him, he was emaciated, gaunt with hollow cheeks, and his bones were pronounced in his arms and sunken chest. I blinked and he was himself again. I just took a breath and pretended it didn't happen. Recently I found out he has been diagnosed with a bone disease.

~I've been doodling lately. I'll randomly get the urge to draw, and I don't do that. But here I've sat with paper and colored pencils in my hand. Then the strangest thing will happen: I'll black out, and the picture will be drawn and colored. I won't remember even deciding what to draw. I take comfort that the pictures are never violent or dark. My latest was actually what I'm guessing to be the green man's face.

To be honest, I'm a little scared. I feel like I'm kind of losing control, because I'm not asking for it. It's just happening. Not everyday, thank goodness. Often enough too keep me on my toes about what I do or say. I shield myself, I ground myself, I've tried meditation and prayer, oils and stones. I talk to the moon and my ancestors. I don't know what to do. I don't want to seem ungrateful for a gift, but I don't want to have to second guess the physical things I see, either. Does anyone have an idea? Maybe a book I can read? Someone I can get a hold of? I'm sorry I haven't been a more supportive member of the group, and I plan to be more active here. I just would welcome a little help at the moment.

[jennlabelle]

Hmmm... this is very interesting. As far as the man with the bone disease, that's not my area of expertise exactly. I find it extremely fascinating though. To me, it's as though you are capable of sensing energy, as though he had been feeling ill and you got that energy directly from him, seeing him as how he felt or how his internal self felt. This is a huge shot in the dark though, I am certain it's much more in depth than that.

As for the drawings, in my past life I practiced automatic writing. Similarly to drawing, it is basically the divinatory method of going into a trance sort of state and working as a medium between the spirit world and the physical realm. Through channelling you can receive all sorts of messages, and it's often in pictures. This is indeed a gift, and I would take it quite seriously. If it gets at all frightening or anything I would worry... but it doesn't seem to be taking that path.

I know this is extremely worrying, I can't honestly say I know what it feels like because I don't. Just be careful to protect yourself when working with the spirit world. This includes spells, always cast a circle etc. And don't use Ouija boards... though I know that seems obvious and I have no idea if you have even done anything like that.

Often we don't even invite things in to our lives, they just sort of follow us around for a reason of their own purpose, or to show us something, and once they've accomplished their task they leave. This is, however, only one possibilty. It is possible that there is no spirit figure attempting to communicate with you at all, and you are just a powerful receptor to psychic energy.

I hope this helps! I am not really an expert but if it gives you any comfort at all, that's good then.

Lots of love,
Jenn

[wanderingwillow]

I agree with Jenn on this. I do hope you can find your feet with this and be able to manage it (if you can). I am not an expert in these areas but I can imagine how I would feel if all of these things started happening to me. You should definitely write down these experiences in a journal or something for a while and about your day before and after when these things happen and see if you can see some sort of pattern about something that may trigger the vision or blackouts.